Hannah Brown details the traumatic story, about the murder of her family members in her new book, God Bless This Mess. The book is about the story of the former “Bachelorette” star who went on to win “Dancing with the Stars.” There’s a lot more to it than her ABC dating and dancing.

Hannah Brown’s new book is touching and it shares some of the most painful moments in her life. According to the outlet, Brown, 27, wrote that she first knew something had happened when her dad had to miss her dance recital to go “help” her Aunt LeeLee. She later learned that she had died alongside her children Robin, who was 6 years old, and Trent who was 4 year old.

“Robin and Trent were almost the exact same ages as me and my brother Patrick six and four and we were just about as close as cousins could be. They were not only our family but two of our very best friends, all wrapped into one.” 

Hannah revealed that her mother broke the news to her by telling her that her Aunt and cousins “are now your angels in heaven” after “a  bad man came to their house and hurt them.”

Hannah wrote that she had an especially hard time wrapping her head around the tragedy because her cousin Robin was the same age as her. She also revealed that her parents ”didn’t believe in therapy,” so she was left to deal with the tragedy on her own. She credited her faith with helping her get through but revealed she still has bad dreams and trouble sleeping more than 20 years later. “I sometimes still question if I’m in a really bad dream,” she continued.

“When my mom told us that somebody had come into their house and ‘hurt them,’ it terrified me in the deepest parts of my heart. I didn’t know the whole story with all the details until years later, but coming that close to something so awful, so terrifying—it was a turning point for me. It changed everything. I was no longer living in the innocence of an untouched childhood.”

Hannah also questioned if the narcolepsy that she suffers from today is “a direct symptom of the trauma of the murder itself.”

“It was really beautiful and healing to be able to finally feel free to talk about it with my own family,” she told the outlet. “Because if you can’t talk about it and feel free and safe to talk about it with your own family, how is it going to feel safe to talk about it to millions of people? So in a way, I’m really grateful [that story didn’t air].” Producers for the ABC dating franchise opted not to air her story about her murdered family members. Instead, she used her book-writing process to get her family to open up about the tragedy. Just before her book’s release, Hannah posted to Twitter to tell fans that she feels “excitement and peace all at once” now that she is finally able to share her story.

Shivangini Rawat

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